Dear Diary
May 24, 2025
I am supposed to be writing my thesis, but let’s take a break. I mean, I need an escape route every now and then. So today, I’m indulging in the Wisest Fool of All Time.
You already know him — the man who asked God for wisdom, got it, and then proceeded to collect wives like Pokémon cards, horses like trophies, and made diplomatic alliances like he was trying to win “Most Likely to Ruin the Kingdom” in his high school yearbook.
The funniest part? He was loved. Not small love o — endless love. Because God called him Jedidiah — meaning “Beloved of the Lord”.
Imagine!!!! Solomon’s government name according to heaven’s registry was: “I love you regardless.”
Now me, as a human being with peppery tendencies and a thesis deadline haunting my spirit, I’d have called Solomon something else entirely — maybe That One I Warned, or Chief Commander of Missed Opportunities.
But that’s the difference between me and God.
God is not petty. God is not human. God is not me.
Solomon didn’t just fail once. He took his time to fall — like lightning in slow motion.
In fact, the very first thing he did after receiving divine wisdom was… wait for it… break the law of Moses.
Deuteronomy 17 made it painfully clear:
• Don’t go back to Egypt for horses.
• Don’t gather too many wives.
• Don’t stockpile silver and gold.
What did my brother do? He went straight to Egypt, said “Load the chariots!” and probably picked up a few princesses on the way. At that point, if I were God — after granting this man divine wisdom — I would’ve sent a small celestial memo: “Wisdom revoked. Kindly return crown.”
But no — God still let him reign. He still let him build the temple. Still let him write Proverbs — maybe just to show us down the line that only God is truly wise. And yes, He still called him beloved.
Because that’s what God does — He blesses us even while our foolishness is still loading.
Why again? Because we’re talking about GOD. I don’t even have more words. Just… God.
And that’s where I had to pause today, in full, confounded irritation. Because God looks at us — in our half-obedient, half-clueless, partially-repentant state — and still says: I love you. Take the wisdom. Take the platform. I’m still with you. Even if you break My heart later — I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
That’s not wisdom. That’s divine madness. That’s radical love. That is wild.
You are the most powerful, Lord — and yet Your love isn’t merit-based. You don’t delete people just because You know their ending. You don’t even wait for us to become worthy.
Solomon was very unworthy — and I honestly wonder what he would have done if You hadn’t given him wisdom. But You? You bless us lavishly for the part of our lives we surrender… even when You already know we’ll wreck the rest.
And that breaks my heart.
Because I know that if I were God — and I knew humans would destroy the latter half of their lives? I’d be petty. I’d send pre-emptive lightning — EVERY NOW AND THEN. I’d withhold favour until COMPLETE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT was achieved and signed off by at least three angels.
Thankfully, I’m not God.
And thank God for that.
I’m not even trying to be Solomon 2.0. I’m just… sorrowfully humbled and madly in love with this God who would never, ever let go.
And so today, I just want to give God this wicked heart of mine — the one that’s still listening, still available, still saying yes before the destructive distractions set in (this is me praying they don’t).
Because if there’s anything more tragic than being wise and walking away from God… it’s being alive and thinking it’s too late to come back.
MAY WE NOT GIVE IN TO DESPAIR.
May we not become wise fools.
May we not lose our wonder.
And may we never forget this truth:
God doesn’t wait for us to become worthy before He starts loving us.
He just loves us. And waits for us to realise it.
So this is my note to you:
YOU ARE LOVED.
YOU. YES YOU. YOU ARE LOVED.
So join me as I say:
Here I am, Lord.
Not perfect. But present.
And that’s enough for You.
Okay — I’m going back to my thesis. Peace out.
Yours in destructive foolishness, but still wildly loved,
Jedidiah
Did you read the last post of “I’m in pain – but not for long” https://oluabikoye.com/blog/hi-im-pain-but-not-for-long/
How weak can you be? Samson had one damn job https://oluabikoye.com/blog/how-weak-can-you-be-samson-had-one-damn-job/
Interesting and fact
Thank you, Oluwaseun! Sometimes it’s the plainest truths that hit the hardest. God’s love is wildly consistent, even when we are not.
Thank GOD that GOD is GOD
Honestly! If God had even a teaspoon of my pettiness, we’d all be thundered by now. Thank God for His God-ness!
He blesses us even while our foolishness is still loading. 💞
God doesn’t wait for us to become worthy before He starts loving us. This touched deeply!
We truly don’t understand it when we sing, ” God is God, God is no man”.
Oladele, thank you. That truth shakes me daily. God’s timing is not “when we’re ready,” it’s always “right now.” Grateful it touched you too.
Summary: God’s ways are not our ways. God’s blessing is forever.
Sometimes too, some persons may be judged based on their outward mundane shows, meanwhile in their rooms, they ask God for forgiveness and are in good relationship with God. Don’t forget psalm 51:17 “a humble and contrite heart, you (the Lord) will not spurn.
Some persons are secretly praying to God for pardon, while other are judging them.
God is not man, man is not God
True, God is not man and man is not God. May we always find the grace to be of contrite heart.
Louisa, that line gets me every time too. It’s divine generosity in motion. May we never forget how gently He handles our mess!
God loves us, regardless!
Yes, Zandy! That regardless is doing heavy lifting in all our stories. May we rest in that wild love every day.
God is love and always loves regardless because , that is His true nature. Now, if God is God then who am I ? I am a child of God , with a spark of God in me . I am a spark of Divinity with the ability to learn to love , to learn to give and receive love. I need to become Love because Love is the coin to present in the gates of heaven to enter the pearly gates. This is what we are on earth to learn . Yes life is not a random walk and there is a method to the seeming randomness.
Nothing is lost even our errors and mistakes is geared towards something :to make us acquire that quality of Love to take us back home to God . It may take a while but its never ever too late. Solomon still remained an expression of Gods wisdom in man is spite of himself when not judged by human standards because the human mind is limited. in understanding the nature of God in His Divinity .
Many thanks Olu for keeping the loving flame alive in us through this noble reminder. The gestures goes deeper than assumed
AddyF, this right here is a whole sermon! Thank you for pouring out such thoughtful reflections. May we keep walking toward Love with our spark of Divinity shining bright.
God is love and always loves regardless because , that is His true nature. Now, if God is God then who am I ? I am a child of God , with a spark of God in me because God created me in His own image. Therefore, . I am a spark of Divinity with the ability to learn to love , to learn to give and receive love. I need to become Love i because Love is the nature of God and is the coin or token to present for admission to the pearly gates of heaven in God’s abode. This Love is what we are on earth to learn and acquire . Yes life is not a random walk and there is a method to the seeming randomness.
Nothing is lost even our errors and mistakes is geared towards something :to make us acquire that quality of Love to take us back home to God . It may take a while but its never ever too late. Solomon still remained an expression of Gods wisdom in man is spite of himself when not judged by human standards because the human mind is limited. in understanding the nature of God in His Divinity .
Many thanks Olu for taking a while off your thesis ticking to keep the loving flame alive in us through this noble reminder. The gestures go deeper than assumed
God doesn’t wait for us to become worthy before He starts loving us. This hits hard!
God no be man. Thanks
Three words that hold a whole revival. Thank you for reading and resonating.
Having read you through the years, I must say that this is your best expression yet, hands down!
The general strategy you employed, the oxymoronic title, the subtle emphases scattered all around the work, the juxtaposing of then and now, and all-round simplicity of expression make this a very interesting read, and yet a solemn realisation of human folly.
I love this and I love you.
Chijioke, this brought tears. Thank you. You’ve walked this writing journey with me for years — your words here mean more than you know. I’m grateful for your eyes, your heart, and your love.